Heat of the Moment

There are times when inspiration hits me all of a sudden, (on the train, shower, etc). These are the poems that are scribbled on napkins, post-its, and the occasional half piece of paper. These postings will always be entitled Heat of the Moment, well, because every blog needs a signature bit. There are no punctuations, occasional capital letters, and correct spelling is optional. Welcome to my unfiltered mind...

Busy Idle 

Standing at the train station 

don't know what I'm doing

going where the wind blows

trying to make a little money 

so I can buy better clothes 

don't really think it will help

but who knows

I have heard so many languages 

that I don't understand 

I wish I knew the secret command

to unlock all the knowledge I cant quite grasp

Love me 

Untitled

Another lover to erase from my memory 

I said I could handle it 

He said it could not be

Fuck why is this happening to me again, for the 100^th time

My heart can't handle any more tears 

or slippery surfaces when my mind falls and cracks and bleeds bloody insecurities 

spilling over into every part of me until I am a doubled over hollow version of myself

Why is it every time after I pick myself back up 

I fall for another lie and come crashing down down down 

I fall into the dark unknown crying out for help because I can't quite seem to save myself 

Help Help Please somebody help me 

Help me piece myself together again

Shit humpty didn't have nothin on me cause my shell takes a lot more to crack.

 

Not There Yet

Please be kind

be patient with me 

I am not there yet 

I have not gotten to happy 

I do not run through fields of flowers because the hills are alive 

if the hills were alive I would be afraid 

I can do a pretty good imitation sometimes

and my smiles are dead on in almost every picture 

yeah that girl can pose 

imitation of life was a girl confused and wanting a better life 

see I could pass for well-adjusted professional cool 

but I am pretty genuine 

not so bad to be around all the time 

so yeah just be kind